My Babies Are Growing Up

Today my Auggie had his last day of Preschool.... *sniff* A few weeks ago I turned Kailer from rear facing to forward facing... He weighs between 29-33lbs depending on the day, full belly, diaper and clothes so I wanted to be safe rather then sorry and at over 32months I felt it was time to turn him around. I feel great that I was able to rear face him to the limits of his seat for the most part and didn't let anyone talk me out of it, and I feel great that my big boy has finished his first year of school.. but I feel sad that they are growing up so quickly. Kai still nurses every other night or so and part of me knows this will have to end soon as much over 3 and I dont' think I should be nursing him, especially when he's shoving his hands down my shirt in public and asking for Momma's milk lol it gets a bit embarassing when he points out which boob he wants in front of strangers. I dont' want to give up the babyhood of Kailer yet it's quickly approaching and I don't like it one bit. I had a very tough time registering Kaeden for Kindy cause the school looked too big for my "baby". I'm having so many thoughts of wanting one more child and having sleepless nights over this, however I don't want to force Steven into something he really doesn't want. Some days he's all for another and others he's completely against it. If only the boys would go to bed early at night, sleep all night long and let Daddy get some rest then I would be allowed another child LOL But my boys have NEVER been good sleepers.

Kailer is speaking in sentances and comprehending so many things I just get blown away. Unfortunately his big brother is teaching him things a 2yr old need not know how to do such as fight and punch etc. but I guess that's what big brothers are for. Kaeden is reading, playing computer games, nintendo DS games like a champ and turning into a boy right before my eyes. Kaeden lost his first tooth April 7th and already has a grown up tooth growing in it's place and the tooth next to it is loose as well.... Is this supposed to happen to my baby already!?!? Kailer is learning his colors and tells me when to go when the light is green and yesterday showed me my remote and pointed at the "1" and told me ONE. He's calling me Jen rather then Mom 1/2 the time and informed me the other day that he wants to ride in a plane and drive the plane. He's got a mind of his own and he isn't my little baby anymore. He's starting to get interested in potty training and has a potty chart hanging on my fridge. Kaeden and Kai go in together and brush their teeth many times on their own as well as bathe and sometimes pour their own drinks or get their own food with the help of a chair to get into the cupboards... My babies shouldn't be able to do these things on their own~! Yesterday I stood in the dining room and rocked back and forth cuddling my naked baby until he fell asleep on my shoulder. I enjoyed it for as long as I could and then laid him on the couch to finish out his nap.... I miss those days or rocking my boys to sleep, snuggling and sniffing their baby scents, rubbing their hair without them telling me no or putting hands over my mouth to tell me "be quiet, dont' sing" when I try to sing them a song... I love their independance and brilliant little minds and love watching those gears work, but knowing that they are quickly turning into boys and soon men is so sad and coming much too quickly!

My babies are growing up ......