My First night without my baby!!

Well we all made a huge step as a family Sunday night... Steven Kaeden and I let Kailer go stay the night with Grandpa Olivas and his girlfriend Lupe. MAN was that tough~!! I didn't want him to go... Kaeden was bawling and just freaking out in general about please dont' let him leave us... I'm glad that Kaeden was freaking out so much because it helped me and forced me to be the "strong" one.... Or I would have been a basket case LOL

It all started when they were getting ready to go home after bbq'ing at our house and Lupe asked Kai if he wanted to go with them. She said she'd get him ice cream and popcorn and they had toys etc. I was thinking NO NO NO but didn't say anything. Kailer decided that YES he wanted to go! I figured Daddy would say no and if he didn't then I would... but next thing I know Daddy is packing pj's for Kai and he's super excited. I told Steven I didn't like this one bit and he told me to step up and say something. So I took Kai aside while Kaeden and him were in my room and he asked if we were going bye bye with him. I explained that no Mommy, Daddy, Kaeden, Tatum and Triniti were all going to stay here at our house, and if he went it would be him going all by himself, none of us were going. He looks at me and says "I KNOW, I'm going bye bye though".... How do you inform your excited 3yr old that he can't go cause you're overprotective and don't wanna give him up? lol I had to let him go at this point. Daddy went and installed the carseat in the car and then asked me to help finish it up and check it. While checking it Kai just sat there so ready to go. I buckled him in and then he gave Daddy a kiss and hug and then gave Mommy a kiss and hug. I went in for a 2nd kiss and he tells me "Mommy I already kissed you".... ARGH Where did my baby go????

After they left Kaeden and I snuggled on the couch for an hour or so and I couldn't help but tear up and cry a bit. Kaeden was sniffling himself.

About 4-5 hours after he was gone we all adjusted and were doing much better LOL He of course was doing great and having a blast at Grandpa's as they had called to check in. Steven and I decided to watch our last movie in the quiet and silence and then off to bed we went.. Steven fell asleep with Kaeden and I dozed on the couch until I was totally uncomfortable and had to go into bed alone..... I LOVE being in bed alone when everyone is home, but it was a tad empty knowing Kai wasn't in the house at all.

I must admit it was nice getting ready for work kid free Monday morning... Grandpa and Lupe brought Kai back around 2:30 after I got off work and he was happy to be home. He was grumpy cause he was tired and just snuggled me a bit. That was nice. I did find out that Sunday night at bedtime he at least asked "Where is my Mommy?" Of course once they told him I was at home and he was staying there he was perfectly content and fell asleep on Grandpa's shoulder, but it was nice to know that I was not completely forgotten that evening ;) lol

Yes I am a slacker!

Ok I cannot believe I went this long between blogs posts! I would update from Sept but that's such a long time ago! Long story short
Kailer turned 3 in Sept and he's my sweetheart. He loves to hug on me and tell me he's so glad I"m here and give me many kisses and hugs. Unfortunately he thinks I am a jungle gym as well and sometimes I feel like he is my own personal leach! We didnt' start preschool yet cause he wasn't 3 before the deadline, but we do go to MOPS regularly and he calls it his "school" and loves to go to play with playdoh!!! one thing Mommy doesn't really do at home is playdough ;) So it give him something to look forward to! The first few times at MOPS were rough and he cried a lot but he's quickly warmed up and now does great! I am so proud of him... As he would say to me "Mom I am so proud of you". It's another of his new favorite sayings.

Kaeden started Kindergarten and is doing great! He goes all day Mon thru Friday which was an adjustment for our family. But it was an adjustment in a good way. As of Sept Kaeden has started sleeping in his OWN ROOM all night long and goes to bed at a decent time of 8-9ish. Earlier if he had a rough morning and didn't want to get up. I honestly cannot believe we ever got him out of our bed, nor can I believe he is going to bed before 10-midnight LOL It's been great! Because big brother has a bedtime, Kailer now has a bedtime as well. He is a bit more challenging, but 6 out of 7 nights he seems to fall asleep on his own in our bed so it's nice to have a few hours to ourselves with both boys sleeping!

Ross is still living here, moved in at the end of Aug. His boys moved in full time in Jan and now seem to be back to part time now that Marie moved back to Moses Lake. Time will tell what happens in that department........

I am working again for the tax season at H&R Block and am very excited and happy to report that I have made it through almost the whole season with a great babysitter and no major health problems YAY!!!!!!! My thyroid got off a bit the first week of work but I recognized the signs and symptoms immediately and nipped it in the butt before it got out of control :)

Found out I was pregnant Christmas eve and miscarried a week later. That was a bummer. But life will go on and is going on.


My niece Peightin Linn was born Dec 8th and is growing so much. I wish I could go visit them but $$$$ is tight for both families so that hasn't happened yet. Grandma keeps me updated with many pics though and she's a doll!!!

Well I am going to sign out for now, but felt after so long I should post something. Once I get one post down the guilt of not posting seems to be not so bad and I am more likely to post about little things LOL I start to feel overwhelmed when I go so long without posting and then continue to postpone posting! TTYS