One tequila two tequila three tequila FLOOR

OMG was it really me who said that I wanted to feel like I'd killed a bottle of tequila the night before a few posts ago? Did I really say I wanted to be sick and queasy all day long? I LIED! This is ridiculous. I walk around like the living dead afraid to breathe, afraid to talk afraid to open my mouth period for fear of vomiting everywhere... I finally go to the toilet so that I can relieve myself and HOPEFULLY make my stomach and body feel "human" for 5min... and DRY HEAVE?!?!?! What is up with that???? I eat food and nothing will come up, so I constantly feel miserable. Teach me to wish myself sick. Now morning sickness with Kaeden consisted of puking when I brushed my teeth in the morning, and a few gags here and there especially if I had an empty stomach. This is SOOOOOO different. No wonder everyone thought I was crazy for WANTING morning sickness... I wanted what i had with kaeden, not this hell!!!! LOL

So for the update on my ultrasound. I went in, undressed and sat on the chair waiting for doc to come in and use the magic wand. As he was inserting the magic wand all I could think was PLEASE let me see something inside that black dot. I don't care how little it is or what it is, just SOMETHING to ease my mind that this lil one is growing and developing (had a fear of blighted ovum). The wand goes in, I see the black dot, and then I see a grey mass! YIPPEEE... Then the doc informs me he sees the fluttering of the heart. I said where?~?!?!?! he pointed it out and sure enough I saw a teeny tiny heartbeat. Now mind you whatever that grey mass was did NOT look like a baby LOL I was 6w3d at the ultrasound, and when I figure out how to post pics on this blog I'll scan the u/s picture and post it here ;) This way I can share the little grey line between the two crosses that the doc put there with everyone LOL There was a yolk sac and baby (the yolk sac was probably 3 times the size of the baby!) and to think that one week prior there had been nothing in that black dot! YIPPEE.... I was glowing ALL day long Friday.... and then BAM Friday night til now I"ve been plagued with nausea and gas and miserableness, not to mention a slight cold to top it all off.

Ok this has definitely become a rambling blog entry and for that I'm sorry. My brain is feeling cloudy and I just want to sleep.... I can't wait for the second trimester for more then one reason now!!!!!!